The 'e' word

There's so many drafts backlogged in my mac that I can't even decide anymore if I still wanna post them.. So much has happened and yet nothing has changed. Not sure if I'm getting tired of not doing anything or the life here. Not as if I'm super busy back in Sheff but I guess attending classes kills time. Or maybe its just that when I'm there, I know that I'm alone. In a good way. I don't have to go back and account to anybody or feel like I owe anybody my life. It's just me there. It's just what I want to eat, what I want to do, what I want to feel; everything's in control. I don't have to feel guilty for not doing certain things etc. & most importantly, I'm in control.

Best part, I don't have to talk about me. I don't have to talk about the 'e' word. Urgh, disgusting. 

E has left, C is leaving, J is flying & everyone else is starting uni soon. And then, there's me.