Soak in the sun and throw everything to the back

Its one of those days where I can sleep so much and not feel a pinch of guilt. &yet I dream of * again. Prolly the only one that haunts me the most in my sleep. Isit a hint, since then for me to do something abt us? I kept procrastinating, maybe one day I'll be the first one to speak first. Last paper tmr, oyeahoyeah. Big Aunt, please do not come yet, boulderactive is tmr. Lots of love, eunice

&everything nice

I'm aching worse off than yesterday. Esp the inner thighs.. God,I feel so stiff. Have been totally sounding like a man for the past days, recover voice recover. Oh wait, did I just durian-ed yesterday..?

I cant wait for SA to be over, need a wardrobe makeover and looking forward to some threading&waxing w the girls.

I wake up just to realise how much I miss you

Change.

Sometimes, I wish I just aint psychic.
Just wouldnt read too much into everything,
just live life blissfully, ignorantly.
Finally, you tried to put it into words of whats been happening this whole week.
You tried to laugh it off.
I can tell.
Its heart tormenting.
It hurts now, being in the place with the most emotions.
I cant pin point it..
The unspoken worries, I couldnt stay any longer.
I cant fight back the tears anymore.
Im sorry I've to leave,
I cant bear to face it.
I saw the disappointment in your eyes,
the sigh you let off.
It pierced even deeper.
I cant bear to think of whats going to happen next.
Im afraid, Im scared, I fear,
Im a sixteen years old teenager.
The question is,
What can I do.
Maybe its time to put some things aside.

Today, UJ asked me to write about change. Perhaps I found the right approach.
Anniversary, X-country some other day..
Im tired