The one with all the emotions

Today, I'd a glimpse of my reflection on the train's window and I look disgustingly ghastly. Like I looked like I've got punched in the face. Twice.

On the train back home, I just sat listening to 小幸運 and reading Metro and of course all about the Paris attack. Not sure if it was the flu or because I'm coming on, I just felt a surge of sadness like I'd to stop before I turn into a ball of tears..

I wanted to fight the flu and go ahead with training plans but thank god I didn't. My body's sore, my nose's blocked, my throat hurts and yet I still gobble down a packet of nongshim cause honestly I'd much rather believe the fact that I'll feel better sweating it all out than popping pills down my stomach.

Uni's been so draining, I feel like I'm back in college just that I haven't got any seminars to properly sit down and practice questions. 3 hours for each mod each week, new topic each week, a gazillion readings.. &we are ending the semester in a month

Brb while I slit my throat with a pen knife...

My person

I am entering a state of complexed emotions and unjustified actions. I no longer know what I want and I cannot decide what is best for me anymore. It's a constant struggle everyday, every week.. Part of me can't wait to be back home but part of me wants to stay away from everything.

I don't have a good vibe about this..

April, please be kind. Please.

Staring at my MM's poster and wondering if things will change, for the better or for the worst.

Read a letter from an old friend last week. It was short but nothing, nothing beats a handwritten letter. I love writing letters even though I don't get replies. But the thing is, you always secretly hope for a reply. And no. Nobody's got time for that these days. In fact, nobody's got time for others these days. 

Ok.

Work. Disposable. Expectations. Ties. Understanding. Run. Kid. Shoes. Letdown. Fire. Push. Ache. Cries. Silent. End. 

I held my breath for so long that I forgotten I was holding it in.

Here we go again

Pardon me for neglecting this space, have been either working or climbing or home only during the wee hours :\ Before I can gather my thoughts, hairpee burfdae charmaine lai !! Stop being so anal hahahahaha but its c00l, I'm used to it ('; So, met up w the tms ppl for pre-xmas party. Best clique gathering of the year ^^

secret santa lolol but we knew who were the santas T.T

ohmegosh I didnt realise nic's face.....

Results dont mean anything but at the same time its everything

funny

Ahh, still cant get over it. 

Cycled with V on the road yesterday.
Well, my first time&so was hers.
LOL.
&she got us lost at ecp.
wow.
Think my age is catching up on me,
my back aches rather frequent now
& the 10 years old stamina is better than mine.
Whenever Im about to catch up with her,
she went ahead.
zz.
so many plans, so little time.ohwells.